It's been few months since I left my comfort zone in hometown. Unfortunately, I need to leave everything including my work, my friends and students, my family, and the children ministry that I started. I am not worried if I go to Manila. But deep in my heart I keep on asking God why do I have to leave this early? Am not yet finished with my bible school and my post graduate education. I have a little children ministry to lead in Baao and I need to guide the students that I lead to Christ.
I was left in complete bewilderment. I lost my job and my family did suffer from the upsurge of financial crisis. We almost go for hunger strike because we're on a tedious shoe-string budget. We all experienced eating once a day and I declare that will be the last time we will experience this kind of suffering.
I was so fortunate enough that I was able to go here in Manila. I never know what future lies here but I trust that God will never leave me alone and that He will supply all my needs according to His glorious richness.
After few months, God provided me a job that allows me to support myself, my family, as well as the church that I belong to. Then I left my job because it's compromising my health.
Yeah I know, that somewhere in the middle, I keep on running the race with a cloud of doubt inside my head. Where am i going? I wonder if God know what He is doing in my life. I was left in the battle unguarded and unarmed because I refuse to use my weapons to fight. I felt like I was a boat without a sailor in a wide stormy ocean. I was baffled with my frustrations and disappointments in my life. It seems I was trapped and there's no way I can find my way out.
I may be in a wilderness right now. I may not be able to know what's going to happen with me in Manila. But I know that I have a Mighty God whom I can trust with all my heart. I may not be able to figure out what's the purpose why is He allowing this to happen in my life. But I know later it's gonna make sense. The only thing i know right now is that, I can depend on God in times like this.
He is the only refuge I have. There's nothing else that matters to me except to be with Him. To be dependent on Him every single day of my life. I know that God wants me to trust Him in times like this... No worries because I know that in His time, He will make all things beautiful.
