It's all About Love, Love, Love!!!!

I am happy and quite satisfied with the student's evaluation..It's more than I ever expected though I know I have so many things to work in my attitude.. I don't mean to brag but teaching is my natural skill.. It's inculcated in every fiber of my veins and there's no left to blame but my gene pool. Oh yeah! I wonder how many times I read the term, "the best" and it's really a good boost on my esteem.

Yet deep down inside of me, Someone is whispering, reminding me that I should learn how to love... Being a teacher is not easy. It will really demand your time and dedication. There are times I am teaching for the sake of my work, forgetting what I am here for. I thank the grace of God for reminding me again about love... The performance evaluation is no more than a piece of paper if I don't have passion for teaching. And worst, if I don't have love for my students.

Love is my fuel to keep things going when the going gets tough. Love is the pumping blood when stress saps my whole strength. It is the only thing that gives me reason not to quit.

My Heart's Cry for Love

There are life circumstances that might overwhelm us--- leaving us bitter, confused, and disappointed. But this is the right time I need to trust God... There are things that I need to end and let go, knowing that it's not meant for you... If God will take a look of my heart, it's marred with wounds and scars. Only the alchemy of grace and love can heal this and stop it from hurting.

I felt neglected and rejected... I felt I am not accepted for who I am...Yeah I am badly broken but this hurt reminds me that I should learn how to put love into practice... Paul stresses in 1 Corinthians 13:1-7 the characteristics of love. And if I fail in some aspects, my love is not yet fully developed. I realize that nothing harder to do than to show my love in times of my brokenness. I need to show my love to other people by showing I care for them. I need to forgive those people who don't care to hurt me. I need to accept them in their weaknesses.

Maybe I badly need some love. But no!  I need to show my love to other people. God showed His genuine love for me. How come I can't show it? It's not only about me, me, and me... It's about others. But I don't think I can make it without God's healing embrace. His grace is enough for me to love others in spite of my down moments...

God-size Dreams Inside Me

Many times I prayed to God to make me productive and fruitful in His vineyard. But I realized that it takes to step on my faith everyday to make my dreams come to pass everyday. God has promised everything in His word. All I need to do is to believe and claim His promises. Most of the time, I was hindered by my doubt and fear, thinking of my weaknesses and inadequacies. Deep inside I felt so insecure-- neglecting that the Spirit of God is living in me.

God promised me His word

1 John 5:4 For whatsoever is born of God overcometh the world: and this is the victory that overcometh the world, even our faith

.... Claiming God's word is more than just believing it.. I have to boldly climb on my faith.. I have to act now make God's dreams a reality. I need to press forward and refuse to be defeated by my fear and doubts. I believe that God has stored the promise of victory in me. I need to keep believing, keep pressing on, keep hoping, and keep holding on to His word.

My God in Times of Trouble

The Psalmist said in Psalm 46 that God is his refuge in times of trouble--- whether it's in relationship, health, financial turmoil, and unavoidable economic upsurge. God is the only One who will never fail us when we reach for help from Him. All we need to do is to acknowledge that we are helpless before Him.

I can't count how many times I've failed in the race of life. Without God's grace and hope living in me, I think I am simply living a meaningless life-- void and empty. I'm gonna shut my heart from hurting because it is marred with scars of pain and disappointments. But God is with me-- and living in me. Greater is He that's living in me than he that's in this world! I am hurting now..and I am tired with the hardball and difficulties life is throwing at me now.. Yet this is the point in my life where I need to put my trust in Him. I am not aware about His purpose but He is always good. I know someday, everything's gonna be alright. Everything will fall into proper places in the right time.

God is our refuge and strength,
   an ever-present help in trouble.
² Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way
   and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,
³ though its waters roar and foam
   and the mountains quake with their surging.^[c]
 4 There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God,
   the holy place where the Most High dwells.
⁵ God is within her, she will not fall;
   God will help her at break of day.
⁶ Nations are in uproar, kingdoms fall;
   he lifts his voice, the earth melts.
 ⁷ The LORD Almighty is with us;
   the God of Jacob is our fortress.
 ⁸ Come and see what the LORD has done,
   the desolations he has brought on the earth.
⁹ He makes wars cease
   to the ends of the earth.
He breaks the bow and shatters the spear;
   he burns the shields^[d] with fire.
¹⁰ He says, “Be still, and know that I am God;
   I will be exalted among the nations,
   I will be exalted in the earth.”
 ¹¹ The LORD Almighty is with us;
   the God of Jacob is our fortress.

God said to me, "be still, for I am your God"...
God didn't owe any explanation to me... Life circumstances are quite unnerving sometimes.. Yet it is a challenge for every Christians to hang on to God's promises. He will surely deliver us in times of our trouble.  Yes, I am in pain..
My heart is stabbed with a double-edged knife but I will remain faithful to Him. I will be still, knowing that my God is a God who is in control of everything.

God's Strength To Let Things Go

I just want to thank God in everything. I cling to His promise on Romans 8:28 that all things work together for good to those who obey Him. God asks me to do what seems to be impossible and difficult to do. But when I trust Him and relinquish the need to control it, I felt a sense of peace. I can let go of everything as long as He's with me...

There are things that we think we need. But in the eyes of God, it's not what you really need at all. I prayed to GOD that I need to let it go but I can't. And I realize that I am capable of doing it using His strength. My desire did not appeal to God so I asked Him to take this away from me. Believe me, it shattered my heart into bits of pieces. But He made me realize that it is just Him whom I really need.

He had a purpose. Things seemed to be as clear as mud but I trust His purpose. I trust His ways. And what is important to me right now is the courage I have to obey Him no matter how difficult it is.

I just can't stop praising Him for the strength He provides. The circumstances allowed me to be hurt and broken but I am rejoicing because with His grace, I was able to stretch my faith once again. I said to Him, I can let go of everything just for you. If there are things I still need to surrender, I know He will help me. Right now, I was really grateful for having God in my life.. What can I possibly do without Him? The tough situation allows me not only to stretch my faith but to experience more of Him, to know Him, and to draw closer to Him....

The God of the Impossibilities

The trials are the best time to experience God's grace. It is your down moments when you feel God's strength.

I don't know where to start in this entry but I don't want to fail God to say thanks for all the marvelous things He has done for us and His faithful followers. I saw how God blessed me in soooo many ways--- my family, my job, my mission as a teacher, my students, my friends, my boyfriend, and most of all-- my intimate relationship with Him.

I know that God is always testing us in the furnace of affliction and He doesn't simply desire us to pass it. But He wants us to soar with it. Many times I felt beaten up but when His presence start to consume my being, I forgot everything. I know I was able. In times of my weakness, there I see His glory and awesome power.

I was faraway from my physical church with a little fellowship with my brethren. Sometimes, I'm losing my interest to pray and to read Bible. I can't even focus on my devotionals because I am baffled with so many uncertainties in life. There are problems that as huge as waves.It will temporarily weighed me down but God never failed to deliver me.

I need to step out on my faith when everything seems almost impossible. Relying on my own strength, I can never run in a battle without His help and armour of love. If I am going to analyze the situation, I am bound to be one of the backsliders and worldly Christians who compromise their values.

But with God, He serves as my inexhaustible strength, keeping me on fire despite that the situation is trying to weaken my faith.

A Successful Worship Concert

September 26, 2009. It was an unforgettable date because of the typhoon Ondoy that devastated thousands of lives in Manila and Catanduanes. But we have different agenda on that this day. This is the Worship Concert for God. This is the moment that all of us were anticipating. A big event to glorify God and worship Him. This is a great opportunity for us to show the world that we have a great God living in us.

There are four worship teams, and we are the second group. Our group were composed of three churches and we were united to bring extravagant praises and worship to our mighty Savior and Creator, Jesus Christ. The past few days, God allowed us to experience His glory until the concert. I'm so nervous that day. I prayed to God to seize the moment that I will give nothing but the best for Him. And He did not failed me. I sung three praises and I saw the heaven opens with gigantic angels carrying trumpets. I give out all my energy and strength to praise Him..that's all i want, to please Him.

The worship teams come together to worship God. I was soooo glad that these teams were united for one purpose and that is to glorify Him that day. I can feel their hearts in deep longing to see the glory of God. We're expecting for more concerts to come. And the group, I salute Him for our unity. We stayed together until the concert ends and part ways looking forward for more fellowship.